Thursday, August 11, 2011

A Mommy's Frustration

The past week or so my 19 month old daughter, Anya, has been driving me crazy.  I have to vent about this so please bare with me. Anya usually takes an afternoon nap at around noon time.  Lately her naps are non-existant.  When I put her down she just plays in the crib. Ok, so you're saying "What's the big deal?  She's not screaming, you can still get things done".  This is not true.  I live in an apartment so she hears everything. I open a bag of chips, she hears it.  I open the guest bedroom door, she hears it.  I clean my paintbrush, she hears it.  So, while she is playing in bed, I sit here on the computer twiddling my thumbs praying she will finally fall asleep so I can go on and paint or clean up around the apt. or even take a shower.  Not only is she not taking a nap. She is becoming very whiny. She whines about the smallest thing and it drives me up the wall.  I try to play with her, she whines. I sit down, she whines.  I don't know if she's cutting her second molars or she's going through her terrible two's stage early.  All I know is I'm going on borderline insanity here. 

I think this is partially due to the fact I have been stuck in the house for a week or so with nothing to do and no one to see.  I take Anya to the library every week, but that's still not good enough.  I think I need time to myself.  This is almost impossible since we have no money for drop-in daycare and no family here to help out.  We just moved up north to follow my husband's job.  I would have my husband watch her on the weekends while I go do something but what would I do?  I wouldn't know what to do with myself! I can't go to the store, I have no money.  I can't go anywhere with anyone because I have no friends up here yet. I joined a mommy's group in hopes of making friends who also have kids around the same age.  I met a nice woman with a son Anya's age but our schedules haven't really lined up together yet. 

Yesterday I had a breakdown while Anya was "down for a nap".  I'm about to have another one since this is the third day in a row Anya hasn't had a nap.  Maybe I'm depressed?  I don't know.

Mental breakdown in 3...2.......

1 comment:

  1. Oh Lord! I wish you had told me more details about this yesterday.... ok get ready for the solution.... and you must do it TODAY!!!

    WHITE NOISE!!!!!!! Get a fan, a sound machine, a radio on static.... anything! And turn it up... ok not ear blowing loud but loud enough to cover anything going on outside the room. Put it next to her door inside her room and you will be golden. The sound blocks those doors opening and other things that might make her think there is something exciting going on outside of her room. I promise it works like a charm.

    We've done this since Layla was born. You can run around our house screaming while she's asleep and she won't hear a thing.

    Please, please, please! Do it now!!!